Dear Diary...

Saturday, December 19, 2009

heyy :DD
back to post again i hope.. hmm okay i know i really really haven't been here in awhile.. hmm but lotsa lotsa stuff has been happening this hols. really feel like i learnt a lot and had many GREAT experiences! :DD
hmm let's see... there was my birthday and birthday celebration (Thanks soooooooooooo much guys.. you really are the best!)
then there was chiang rai trip i think,, photos on facebook :) (love love loved it! and really an eye opener..enjoyed every single moment of it and esp spending time with the people there and those who went on te trip too! )
hmm then there was guides bonding camp! :DD
sec4 farewell :( really going to miss the seniors.. aww.. come back soon yeaah :)
council camp
council farewell :( same.. going to miss them loads too! so FUN and CRAZY and SERIOUS at the same time! :DD
hmm then there was the usual holiday stuff.. guides... homework :( umm umm going out..
oh!!
sweeying's birthday celebration! :DD
watched quite a lot of movies (for me anyway) so far..
christmas carol
call of the wild
fantastic mr fox
NEW MOON! :D
all of them were great!!! :) dont you just love movies...

okay.. opened up my mail today.. and saw... CHRISTMAS CARDS!
haven't had that feeling in awhile. you know the one where you actually got some snail mail which isn't bills... haha :) thanks for the cards guys.. i shall send some back and "recoonnect" with people i haven't really talked to in awhile.. remember when we were younger and when we received simple notes, letters or snail mail that contained maybe a few lines.. but the fact that it was written by someone that cared bout you made you feel like.. i dunno how to say but it's an awesome feeling and yeah. really miss it.. what with the technological communication and all.. just once i kinda wished that things could go back to how they were before.. not that i dont like technology and all... :) i mean where would we be without our computer.. handphone.. music player.. not to mention TV and radio :DD but a little written lettes never hurt anyone :) haha!
hmm.. that's all for now i guesss. will be back soon i hope! :D

Pamela :) @ 12:18 AM|

Friday, November 6, 2009

heyy!!! :)) okay! shall begin typing what will probably be the longest post of my blog.. hahahahaa
hmm where to begin? let's start with last day of school..
it was kinda happy and sad at the same time.. cos like only half the class was there and we didn't really get to say bye to most of our friends esp those who won't even be here in singapore for the next few months :(
bittersweet bout results mann.. i got almost every grade... and i guess that about sums it up.. i know i should be contented.. actually i am for some of them.. like my Amaths... hahahaha! i'm SOOOOOOOOO GLAD there were many people to help me along the way.. if not for them i'd probably be like dying at that area and totally regretting...so thank you thank you thank you guys!!! :) hmm wish i could have done better.. i knw now's the holidays and i should be chiong-ing and all.. but i just cant seem to get started and all... :( sooooo lazy... mayb i should go look at my report book again.. sure can get started :p
but everyone around me worked sooooooo hard and some got their desired results.. while others.. let's just say i was shocked *sorry* i mean... must it really take such a big blow for me to realise that such things can happen and it may happen to the most unexpected of people... so cannot complain and must must work harder i guess! :) my sister did okay lah.. i think.. for her anyway... for once in her life she get to feel what it's like to be near the top of the class... happy for her mann :))
hmm after that... THE FIRST WEEK OF HOLIDAYS! YEAH!!!!!!! :D
had CC3 confirmation camp on monday and tuesday... it was such an AWESOME way to start off the holidays.. it was really one of the best camps o ever went too :) and the first one that actually made me cry! :O
hmm.. we went to st theresa's retreat centre... near ij kellock i think.. started the first day by playing some games... and we were kinda playing captain's ball.. and obviously it was guy-dominated.. cos they were like the only ones who touched the ball and ran around after it.. haha! :) then was LUNCH! :D yum yum.. hmm i think after that we went to the colombarium.. that's the place where all the ashes of the people who have passed on are kept.. they have a pretty and big colombarium there.... never been to one before so i didn't know how'd it be like.. it was..an experience.. happy and sad at the same time again.. saw children who died as young as a few months old! so sad.. made me think how fragile life really is.. it can be gone just like that *snap fingers* and then there were those that had whole families that were RIP-ing together.. so sweettt... and there was this young boy who died quite long ago but i saw his parents still go visit him there.. very touching... and it was sorta significant too.. cos that day was ALL SOULS DAy (2Nov) then we went back to the ahll and they started asking us like how we felt and what would we want people to remember us for when we die and what would we do if told we only had 3 months to live..and it was thinking time... really made me stop and think about these questions for real... cos i ever thought bout "death" before.. but never as seriously as this.. and i'm glad i did cos i actually managed to answer some questions for myself :) okay... i think i';m babbling.. sorry bout that...
hmm can't quite remember what happened after that.. i think we had some praise and worhsip songs.. OH! did i tell you. ms sherlyn khong.. my teacher who taught me in p2 and who came to brief us bout chiang rai mission trip a few days ago came for our camp! so good to see her again.. it was like soooo long never see her then all of a sudden she reappear in my life.. *is this telling me somth???* haha! :)
then we had to wear a blank shirt and we were blindfolded.. then led to a room and somebody would come in but he/she can see you but you cant see him/her and then the facil would ask like if this person (meaning me) hurt you or did hurtful things to people then he/she can take paint and smear on the back of the shirt i was wearing... this happened for everybody.. and then you yourself can take paint and smear the shirt front if you think you ever hurt anybody... which i guess everybody obviously did before.. so in the end everybody got painted shirts.. very symbolic.. cos it made me realise (again.. hmm why this camp make me realise so many things) mad me realise that i should be careful with what i do and cannot just anyhow say/do things.. cos i may unknowingly hurt people.. oh which reminds me.. i sincerely apologise to you.. yes you.. if i'e ever hurt you before :)
then was dinner and some sharing stuff and then had confession with priest...and i think was zzz time...
the girls can sleep in beds leh.. but the guys had to sleep altogether in this room with only mattress on the floor.. actually.. felt quite bad for tthe guys... i mean so what if they're guys..and we're girls.. it's like such a big difference.. guys sleep floor girls sleep bed.......
then they said next morning can wake up at 8am but they started banging on our doors at 530am!!! saying we had to go for morning mass with the sisters at the chapel nearby... we were shocked mann.. nobody in the world expected that! haha.. the sisters were soooo cool :) and they wake up so early just to have mass everyday.. super admirable mann :D after that had brakfast.. but very few people were hungry... most were just quite pissed that they had to get up so early...and they show attitude :( then got a sorta scolding session which soon became like a confrontation.. and individual people were picked out.. and sorta questioned bout their faith and real attitude towards church and god and all...super scary!!! but in a way it was good cos it really made the fact that we had very few months left to our confirmation sink in... we would be confirmed soon next year but were we really ready for it.. so now.. i shall try to be a better catholic :) and make a conscious effort to know more bout god :)
hmm..then was lunch and sorta silent adoration in front of the cross.. the whole room was dark but got candle light and everybody was like concentrating and all.. super cool!! :) then i think it was dinner and clean up and we had to go home..
reached back at church around 9 plus i think.. went home bathed and had to on the com to chek up on guides stufff.. cos had to go school early in the morn for guides on wed! hahahaha
guides on wed... hmm did profi badges stuff and prepared for sec4farewell.. sang the dedi song.. so awesome! didn't know the guides could sing that well.. well some of them anywy... it feels so different and weird to not be there and be the one singing but instead i'm in front controlling the music player.. it feels different you know... *mixed feelings*
thursday.. didn't really do much.. i think just sat at home and finished up watching this drama series and helped my dad cut bamboo to use as a bamboo pole to hang clothes! you wouldn't believe how dangerous a seemingly harmless bamboo cn be... it has like tiny hairs which will fall off and sitck to you... and it's damn hard to remove and super pain if you go press.. and it's so small that it's so hard to remove.. had a hard time taking it out of my hand and helping my dad to do it.. cos he rub against the plant and it got stuck at places he can reach :P so ma fan right... so lesson learnt.. dont go cut bamboo pole without wearing shoulder-length-gloveS! :D
tehn friday.. today! :) one more day to my birthday!! :) haha... just realised i got my first birthday present on the last week of school.. given by ashley... then had my first birthday wish by someone special who thought my birthday was last week..but then i was like no it's one more week and he/she was like paiseh.. haha! :) but it's okay.. a wish's a wish right..haha.. then had 2 more wishes by amanda and nat tong b4 they went for their PL camp which is from 6-8nov so they cant wish me on the actual day.. so sweet right.. haha
so anyway.. thank you to these people! you guys are so awesome! :D
had sorta birthday lunch with family at.. you guessed it. swensons! had my yummy ice cream.. and then walked around thomson plaza a while.. went home. bathed.. read my book.. fell asleep.. woke up and realised i had to go for evening mass with church friends! hurry change and went there.. my first weekday evening mass.. it was cool! umm it was held in the chapel and i haven't been there since the church was renovating.. it was so pretttyyyy! :) then went for dinner. but couldn't really eat due to eating so much during lunch.. haha! :D then here i am blogging till my fingers ache from typing... shall probably stop now...

hmm..go listen to his song! it's pretty awesome :)
time of my life- david cook!!!

Pamela :) @ 4:36 AM|

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

been wanting to blog for such a long time.. and when i'm finally at this posting page.. i realised that i dont exactly have the time to go type out my long story.. so i shall leave it to another day! :) sorry cos it's like i wanted to blog that day after exams but then i was totally celebrating and sorta lah.. then the next few days was kinda havoc cos had so much happening at the same time.. then there was results.. and it was well .... to me lah.. TERRIBLE>. so didn't really feel like typing out.. but i will do it soon no worrries :)
xoxo.. i'll be back soon/... in the meantime.. dont miss me too much kayy (: haha!

Pamela :) @ 6:19 AM|

Saturday, September 26, 2009

HELLO! :D okay umm so much happened in the past week and since the last time i was here but anyway... i was supposed to write this here on 24 september but yeahh.. didn't get to go on the com so i shall write it now though it's a little late.. sorry! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI LI! :D hmmm how'd you like the sorta surprise we planned for you??? pssttt we decorated/teepeed her table with pictures and stuff and it had to ramin there for the whold day :D and then when that was supposed to be our "only" birthday present to her but then after school then we'd go over to her house with a cake and celebratE! hahahaha! but she guesssed in the end what we were going to do so didn't really get her offguard.. oh wells..but at least she enjoyed herself :DD hmm ooh and the cards that you guys wrote for her.. yeah dont worry they reached her in the combined present we gave kai.. and she LOVED it :) YAY! :D hard work paid off.... oh and i realised i cant plan surprose parties cos then i'd let the thing out one way or another leh..
:( hehe..
hmm today.. went to school soooooooooo early to have guides planning meeting... plan for ALL the stuff that's going to be happeneing after exams and during hols :)) it should be fun lah! oh which reminds me i need to go look for something online later.. remind me ah...
hmm exams coming...grrrrrrrrrrr WHY oh WHY are they here soo soon.. or should say WHY do we even need exams.. i mean like i like learning and all.. but exams... they're just well.. a little ummm... kinda spoil the fun of learning you know? i mean we should learn something cos we want to and not cos we have to pass some exam or someth.. or at least that's the situation now.. so cant complain lah...just do the best we can i guess :)
hmm okay.. if i'm not back soon to blog again.. i guess you'd know the reason why.. so until next time guys :)

Pamela :) @ 4:29 AM|

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

heyy :D nothing much to write today leh... hmm went home early today.. no more guides for awhile... haha...
then went home and bathed and ate lunch and slept!!!! ofor like 3hours plus i think.. then it sorta rained while i was sleeping so it was so shuang lorh :) haha! dont you just love sleeping when it rains.. it's like so cooling esp since nowadays is like super HOT! :D
joey's birthday today.. and i know i haven't been doing this for a looooooong time and sorry to those people who i forgot to put your name up here for birthday "message" but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY :) thanks for being so awesome and keep on being you! :) oh and good luck for exams.. HAHAHAHA
hmm okay. i dont think i should be here.. back to checking mails then homework!!! :O

forever young
Lets dance in style, lets dance for a while
Heaven can wait were only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We dont have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The musics for the sad men

Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders were getting in tune
The musics played by the madmen

Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
Why dont they stay young

Its so hard to get old without a cause
I dont want to perish like a fading horse
Youth is like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
later gator! :)

Pamela :) @ 6:06 AM|

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

okay! back to blog bout my holidays-break-study time...
hmm on monday... was the lpi workshop thingy.. i think i already blogged a little bout that so i shall not bore everyone by repeating myself :)
tuesday... was also the lpi thing gut it was the second and last day.. i guess tuesday's session was better for me in a way cos i feel that i kinda learnt more lah.. my opinion that is... and yeah.. it was real touching.. and (thanks to those who came talk to me.. esp eunice chan for giving me your ribbon :D and chien, swee and amanda for being such awesome ppl and saying those stuff to me tho it made my fountain start and never stop till like one hour later) thanks so much guys,, you really made me realise more bout me than i knew about and i shall try to be even better and yeah. hopefully.... ........ then after that rather emo session was sorta like three legged football... was with saira and averil.. they were so funny lorh.. then cos we had to tie our legs together so it was kinda hard to coordinate and walk tgt at a fast speed.... so everyone was practically limping about and all.. except for th crazy-ly fast ppl and they could walk so well together.. lucky for them lorh.... but this was one of th most fun stuff throughout the course :D learnt lots from here too lorh.. it just proves the theory that ppl learn faster thru practical and not thru memorising or blah blah.. stuff like that :)
wednesday... woke up so early to accompany the guides down to st john's headquarters for their first aid course.. met kai, joycelyn, amanda and nat tong at tpy macs for breakfast! YUM! :D tho i didn't really eat bf can... was hungry but BROKE too.. so yeah.. poor me i guess.. then helped joycelyn fix her monnkey to her bag... so diffficult can.. the ksyring was so stiff and i didn't really have nails... -.- hmm then off to st john's...reached there and realised we were one hour early or something?? OH and the hall there so freaky.. and old can.... never really thought such places would still exist in singapore :) but it was there and even got a plaque saying when it was built.. 1960something i think..... we didn't wanna stay in that stuffy hall for dunno how many hours so we went to th mall opposite which had a SUBWAY! and we sat there and did homework and guides stuff like guai ppl.... well... except till we started laughing and losing concentration.. so we laughed really loudy i think :P but lucky th subway ppl never come and scold us...subway was like super cold lorh!!!!!!! i was going to freeze into ice cube already..... :p joycelyn's friend-s were there too...and after lunch at PIZZA HUT! they played ccards while we did our hw AGAIN>< color="#c0c0c0">sleepover :) and sorta homework.. cos i was like dying with it all and needed kai to help me.. i think... though we mainly only did eng oral i think :D ate YUMMY dinner at the kopitiam downstairs her house there and i wanted to eat my old chang kee curry puff but decided not to cos the walk there was super longgggggggg..
then went back and attempted to do more work... ending up doing till LATE (sorry kai) thenn went to sleepp..... talked till 2am actuallyyy.. THEN was zzzzz time...
next morn woke up at i think 7am but i delay till dunno what time also and in the end nearly late.. haha! :) same thing.. brought them down... went st jonh's... but ate breakfast at SUBWAY! yeah! so long never eat subway already...... :D hmm then met estelle there and did hw again... everyone was like cracking their brains out over chem and maths can... toopid homework... i so need a tutor or something... mayb for the coming meals i should make my texxtbooks and notes into soup and go drink them! :) hahahahahahhah
friday.. went out with kai, swee and chien.. awesome time! :D and so fun walking up that ulu ulu hill there... ate dinner at some mall in choa chu kang...then went home and had to eat dinner again.. cos i wasn't really supposed to eat dinner out... hmm ANYWAY...
saturday.. nothing much... had chinese tuition in the morn and then went to church in th evening...had to walk there since it was so near my house.. went holy spirit.. not my darling Christ the king.... aiya.. actually holy spirit not that bad.. jsut tt i prefer CTK better! oh did i blog bout youth rally yet??i think i didn't right??? okay.. it was super FUN and i'm glad i went for it...had praise and worship and got to know more bout my cat class friends :) and of course more bout god ((:
sunday!!!! cat class in the morn and then went ION ORCHARD to eat!!!!! and half celebrate my dad's wbirthday which was during th sept hols... ate ice cream buffet... never seen so much ice cream in my life mannn... haha! so much ice cream at one place rather..oh and neraly got lost in ION again... that mall ah... so confusing :s not for dumb dumb people like me who cannot remember which way is in and outt... haha!
monday... couldn't believer school started so fast already.. one week break like not enough like that.. so began term 4 and th start of supposed intense revision and exam prep!!! talking bout exams :( aiya.. dunno what to say lah.. it's like once agin that time of th year and everyon's studying like mad.... dunno if i'll be able to catch up leh... sure hope so :) okay but no matter what musn't give up JIAYOU!; we can all do it.. haha!
monday was also english oral!!!!! OMG! i was like th first person cos i had to timekeepp.... so freaky lorh.... never been first in my life for oral cos i'm usually last cos of my surname/reg number.... so yeah it wsa rather a new/nerve wracking experience.... hope i didn't screw my orals... i know my conversation was rubbish...
... shall not write bout it here... you guys read already will get bored one.. :) then today... notihing much... i just realised that it's 20plus days more to exams!!!! cant believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i'm gonna start freaking out soon i think... aww man but looking forward to th days after tt.. tho we may not entirely have a HOLIDAY>. at least it's sorta a break from schoolll.... SORTA lah :) kayy.. gotta go back to the MOLE and ATOMS and IONS and MOLECULES thingy which i do not understand.. anyone wanna help me??? help would be very appreciated.... :) hehe... going to go for remedial for all th subjects mann.. but i dont mind lah... hopefully it'll clear the fog that constantly blowing around in my head :D okay.. think that's all for now...
some song lyrics kayy?? :D
aiyo.. why WHY cant blogger copy and paste stuff.. okay... hmm go listen
- i can wait forever- simple plan

i know i feel like forever, but that's just the price i have to pay...

Pamela :) @ 12:22 AM|

Sunday, September 13, 2009

heyy :)
hmm.. one week of septembet holidays just flew past like that! can you believe it???? :O school's going to start tmr and it's back to the hectic life and blah blah.. exams in one month some more!!!!!!!!1 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
hmm so many things happened this past week leh.. monday and tuesday was LPI and boy was it different from any other leadership workshop thigny i ever went for :) and that's a good thing-- it think...
then wednesday and thursday was first aid course with the other PLs and to accompany our guides...... it was fun lah i guess :D esp when we went all high and started laughing so loudly... aiyo....
then friday...stayed home for the morning to chiong my homework.. though didn't really finish much of it :( then went out with the clique in the afternoon :) awesome! excpet that the journeyy was like one hour plus long and i kept getting scared cos they were like talking bout ah piao! hmm but anyway.. went there and realised it was totally different from what i thought it would be.. oh well..
more on all these stuff tmr i guess.. need go sleep now..
byeeeeee :D
miss all those times we shared...

Pamela :) @ 8:35 AM|