Dear Diary...

Sunday, July 27, 2008

hey people. i feel like posting again.

i feel happier now. cos i jus talked to some people.... u noe who you are..

anyway, i realised that things weren't meant to be like that, it just happened...

yea... and now i'm trying to edit our geog tech report... and... haiz. the word limit ah...must cut down!!! sigh. so many projects.. it's horrible.

teehee..

i better get baack to editing my thing... bye.

isn't this nice? ms kai li made it!!!!!

:) i know it's an old photo...but it's sooo pretty isnt it..

lol

ok... ms kai li just gave me this one.. i look way wierd. please dont laugh and/ or comment.

xoxoxoxo ps. i love you xoxoxoxoxo

Pamela :) @ 3:02 AM|

sorry about yesterday people. i wasnt in a right frame of mind...
sigh.
i guess i'm just too paranoid! and cant admit things sometimes.
really. any of you reading agree with me?????
i guess it's no excuse to go around behaving like that, so i sincerely apologise. to anyone i have offended in the past :(
and xoxo iloveyou to those people.

umm... i' kinda really happy right now, cos my relative finally came out of hospital!!!! and she could even celebrate my uncle (not jonathan) uncle's birthday with us! yea!!!!! i'm so glad that she's out of hospital and recovering! thank god!!!!!

aand you know something? i found out tat the geog tech report is soooooooooo harD!!!!!!!! sigh....... any other groups avent started yet???/ hehe

ok. i better go do it now. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
ps. nisha!!! we'll miss you if you go to NJ!!!!
and vaney!!!!!!!! we'll miss you toooooo..

~i'm not perfect, but parts of me are~

Pamela :) @ 1:22 AM|

Friday, July 25, 2008

hello...
i just want to say something-to nobody in particular. i'm just ranting

you know what? what you say or rather dont say. really hurts. eventho nobody would know who you are talking about, i can sense something behind your actual message! do you know what you say hurts!!!! and when i read it, i feel betrayed. i guess i was only trying to help and you not only turn a deaf ear, but also say it's troublesome? i thought we were supposed to help each other????? if you really dont like it why cant you tell me to my FACE! or at least consider how i feel???
but remember, no matter what, i'll try my best fto forgive you and forget this hurt, but a little of it will still remain!

anyway, today... woke up sooooooooo early to go for novena... and then the novena got soooooooo many people!!!!!!!! aiyo then cannot find parking space and my mummy had to "illegal" park... heehee.

and now i'm sitting here typing and thinking..
what if one day you found yourself lost. would you turn to your family or your friends?how would you know your family or friends would even care about what you say? then where would you turn to? your friends maynot take it seriously..your family might just brush it off...
then you'd be truly lost wont you? (i think we should turn to god) HONESTLY! dont laugh!

and another thing... yesterday.. got guides! andand we kinda practiced the ndp marching thingy...it was kinda wierd cos some people never come and there were holes everywhere...
andand... now i'm typing and my tuition teacher is outside with my sister and she say i type so loud and hard... and she says this is a sign of frustration and/or sadness... i guesss she's right.cos i'm kinda feelin wierded out right now. but it's sooooooooo wierd right? cos she says my typing so loud.... LOL!
so i'm trying to type softer.
and softer.
and softer

anyway, i guess i'm just paranoid. mayb what i saw may not have been what i thought it was. i guess i'll never know.
but what's a blog for anyway, it's for saying how i feel and recording down events isnt it? so please dont hate me for this(if you can see this)i'm just saying how i feel
and people if you are reading this and you think i'm super paranoid etc.. DONT TELL ME! i'm just saying how i fell

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ok enough about that. i shall go back to doing my hw etc. mayb i'll blog again later..

xoxoxoxoxoxo whether you know it or not, i love you xoxoxoxoxoxo

Pamela :) @ 8:06 PM|

Thursday, July 24, 2008

hello...
i feel like i haven't posted in a loooooooooong time...
but this one has to be a short one... cos today got soooooo much homework.
ok. first of all... hillary and odelia had their buddies from hong kong coming this whole week. their names are ilda and jade i think.... from st pauls co-ed college..... like all the other exchange students in past years.......i think their accent is really cool and they seem reeeeeeealy friendly too :)
but on wednesday, we had gym and everyone was trying out their routine and stuff and odelia...
ODELIA tried to do some acrobatics or something and sprained her ankle!! aiyoyo... and then she had to be in a wheelchair.. i bet it hurt a lot... ODELIA ARE YOU OKAY?
and other people also got injured like nutty who possibly sprained her muscle or something while doing handstand?
gym is soooooooooo dangerous.......................
umm..... i hope the hong kong people have a nice stay here and go back eith gooooood memories of singapore! heehee

i wish you wouldnt be like that all the time. if you even took the time to look at yourself. u'd realise how much you're worth. that is a lot! and dont mock me all the time. it's not nice. didnt your mum teach you to be nicer?

It's possible if you just believe!
o and another thing! my darling NATALIE YEONG IS BACK.., actually for quite sometime already. but... yea. i'm only writing it down now... since she went last year.. i sometimes think of her.. and miss her.. you know?

~thank you for being there. i'll always remember you xoxoxo

Pamela :) @ 4:26 AM|

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

HiiE everyone!!! :)
let me start with yesterday.
it was BEATRICE's BIRTHDAY!!!
HAPPY Birthday BEATRICE !!!
hope you had lotsa wishes and presents!
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andand....this week.monday no school cos of youth day holiday!
umm....it was ok la...
but just that i fell down on sunday night andand i did something to my toe muscle and it's now super painful! had to put some black medicine! so smelly and icky! but at least it helps to heal my painful "bruise"
and because of that. i cant exactly walk properly these few days. so today i could skip PE and HHF! hhahha
and now my toe there is like becoming blue-black cos all the clotted blood is coming out? ir something like that la.
anyway, then on monday like was saying. my mummy made COOKIES! yummy! it was kinda the first time she baked for us and it was cool. who knew she could bake so well :))
and....tuesday.i had to go to school with painful leg. but not many ppl noticed. just that i was walking ultra slowly......................yea...
and TODAY. it was feelin better. but my mum said dont take hhf and pe and i said yay!!! hahahahhahahhahaha
but the hhf dance steps--> so fast today!! the hiphop part! anybody else think so too???
and pe??? we're doing GYM! omigod!!! mrs nicks looked so cute when she did all her rolls and stuff today..who knew she could cartwheel!!!!!!!
anyway, i cant even cartwheel and she expect me to do gym assesment!!! aiyo.......
and ummmmm.....talking about caartwheel..it reminds me of OM and odelia doing a super-straight cartwheel! did u even noe she was quite good in gym in her primary school??? anyway, i admire it!!!!!!!
and wat else today.......
o ya!
the vietnamese people from vietnam..duh.. came on monday. we have 4 in our class as our class got 4 buddies..beatrice, sarah, kelly, ping en......
and i realised that they dont know wat thermometer or temperature is(in english, i bet they noe wat it is in vietnamese language)
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and then today during english was considerably fun.. got crossword puzzle and some comprehension competition thingy,.
actually i thot it would be stupid. but turned out quite fun la..... :))
finally mrs mah is interesting.
hehe
and and she let us off late for early lunch before little india trip..
sigh.
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so at little india, we were supposed to learn more about cooking and history. our teacher going ith us was ms yeo. who kai li says is her sister... lol
andand the stupid woman mrs poon said we had to go in grps and it was split from cynthia onwards... so i couldnt be with kl, sy and lcw...
sigh
but i guess the trip turned ou to be ok.
we went to the temple
and the stalls.
and we got to try indian food like dosai.................................
it was quite yummy la...
when we got bacl on the bus......... the class was re-united.. yay!
haha
and then when we got back to class. then kl had to go discuss poetry slam with sarah they all.. and she took sooooooooooo long. and never let me take picture of them! hmph!
and then we went home. but i didnt walk with kai li. i also dunno why i wait for her... so craz right???
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umm. today i learnt some NEW things. i'll always remember it!!!

~i'm STILL standing here WAITING for you to NOTICE me~

Pamela :) @ 6:53 AM|